For some reason, I feel abandoned, and undeservingly so. I feel that after the many people I've met, and the many things I've done to be close to them, and the many things they've said to make me feel bad, nothing's come out of it. It's either I'm just an acquaintance, or an online friend, or someone you can faithfully rely on - but nothing more.

I feel senseless.

I feel like I'm not meant to be happy.

I feel like I'm not designed to feel happy.

At this point in my life I feel nobody is meant for me.